Ugh, I am so down today.
To all the women with whom I've rolled my eyes at when they go through PMS, I sincerely apologize. That's because I was within that happy bubble on the pill, where PMS, acne and bloating does not exist in that world.
Now that I'm off the pill for about a month now, I am feeling the full force of PMS for the first time in years! I feel so tired, my abdomen is cramping, and I've been pretty cranky. Its a good thing I took a day off work today after all.
I'm currently going through that phase where I'm experimenting to see what works with my body well and what doesn't. If the pill works fine with me, I might consider taking it again. But if I can be quite happy being the natural woman that I am now, maybe getting off the pill is a good thing after all.
Not too sure about the women out there and their experiences with the pill, but here's mine.
1. No More Schedules
The number one perk about no longer being on the pill is the fact that I don't have to obsess or worry about taking the pill at the scheduled time. If I go out without my pill, or if I find that I forgot to take it, I get into a panic mode; what if my hormones are imbalanced? What if I get pregnant?
Ugh, its those little things that bug me. Luckily, I've always been on time tho, and I hardly miss the time. But its nice to know that I don't have to worry about it anymore.
2. I'm Losing Weight
When I stepped onto the scales for the first time in a month, I was pleased to find that I lost at least 2kg.
Like, finally! I've been trying to lose weight for so long, but I just couldn't reduce it no matter how much less I'm eating, or how hard I hit it at the gym. My weight kept slowly climbing, and it was so frustrating. I'm now bringing sexy back!
Sometimes I wonder if my ex broke up with me because I'm getting chubbier, but then again if that were the case, I'd probably dump his ass instead.
3. I'm More Energetic
Contributing to my weight loss, I think its also partly due to an improved performance in the gym. I feel a lot more energetic than before, and I've been hitting it harder at the gym.
I read somewhere that the pill tends to lower your testosterone, which is probably why your performance at the gym may decrease a little. I think its quite true, and I do feel a lot better working out these days.
4. Confidence Boost
A month into this experiment, I do feel a lot more confident and sexy these days. However, the only downside is that I'm as horny as a teenager with raging hormones these days and it is driving me nuts.
The good thing is that I tend to use that energy to lift heavier at the gym and run faster on the track. That way, I'd tire myself out and I'm back to my happy bunny self :)
SATAN IS ALIVE! He's here, he's Queer, and he's gonna blow my uterus away!
Omg, I have never felt so down about having my period in years. Back when I was on the pill, having my period was like having a few drops of blood a day while I go out being my happy self throughout.
Now.... now it feels like a tidal wave of emotions and blood flowing out of me and I'm scared. It's so weird, but its not to the point where its something I can't take, but if you approach me, just throw some chocolates at me and your life will be spared.
I'm gonna miss my beautiful clear skin...
Of course, having the usual PMS comes with the full package including acne. Lucky for me, its not too bad, but I've had two zits this month and its already too much for me. Hope my teenage phase is over and I may continue to have that one or two occasional pimples.
Fingers crossed yo...
3. The Feels
Not sure if its the song I'm listening to, or the fact that puppies do get eaten out there in the world, but I do notice that I'm truly getting them feels these days.
Of course, with the occasional downers, I do feel exceptionally happier these days, so I guess there's a balance in my emotions, but more enhanced?
Anyway, that's what I'm going through after being off the pill for a month. Would I continue to go the natural way rather than the pill? Most likely.
Unless I'm required to take the pill by the doctors or if condoms are no longer available in the world anymore, I think I'd go au natural for now and see where life takes me. Ladies, what's your experience with the pill?
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